Every minute of every hour of every day there is someone around and making noise. There is not one moment that I am allowed to have to myself, not one moment that I am allowed to have a break from other people’s noise, not one moment that I have any control over my own surroundings.
The central heating has been left on all night — which isn’t even “left on” because if it were a constant sound I could at least have some chance of tuning it out, but it goes on and then goes louder and then shuts off and then a few minutes later it goes on and then goes louder and then shuts off, lather rinse repeat all night. Especially stupid when the temperature tomorrow is supposed to be near 90 again, and even more idiotic when there are windows open downstairs to get some of the overnight cool air inside the house.
I woke up because of that noise, and only moments later I was listening to a human doing an impression of a cat with a hairball, which is something she does all the time. It’s as bad as it sounds. I don’t know what her fucking issue is, just that she frequently spends minutes at a time gagging and retching and coughing and sounding pretty much like she’s got a human-sized hairball. It’s absolutely sickening.
I want out. I want control — just a little bit of control over my own environment for a change. And of course, I’m powerless to make that happen, because I’m not the one with any control.