Again and again, again, again, again-again, never stop

I usually don’t bother even writing it down or saying anything, because it’s so common, so frequent that it just turns into a droning mess…

I need to be fucked. I need sex. I’m horny and alone and unsatisfied. I need sex. I need more sex. I need different kinds of sex than I’m getting. I need to fuck.

I need to be eating better. I need to be eating more often. I’m not eating enough. Need food. Pink pervert needs food… badly. I really gotta eat. I should eat something. I haven’t had a meal today. Need to eat.

It’s too loud! Wish I had some peace and quiet. So noisy! Fuck, this noise is driving me crazy… it’s so loud here, I can’t think! Another panic attack, things are so noisy here. Too much noise!

I don’t know where I’m going to live. I need a place to live. When do I find a home? Gotta find something long-term and stable for housing. I need a place to live… where am I going to live?

It’s the same thing on repeat. The same thing on repeat. The same thing on repeat.

I’m just going to go to sleep for now… again.

Now all the odds are in my favor, something’s bound to begin.

August 2012. Last time I was fucked by a phallus made of flesh instead of sculpted from silicone.

January 2011. Last time anyone came inside me.

I’ve had more sex in the last year or so, more consistently, with more wonderful women, than in the entirety of my relatively short sexually active adult life, and I have several wonderful people helping me with that in the present — Lime is distant but travels on occasion, Again is around plenty, and even sometimes has had Crowbar and Pout along with.  SoCal has been a gift from… well, I wouldn’t accuse her of being from heaven, she might be offended by that — but she’s definitely been a wonderful thing in my life since she recently came into it.

With all of that, and all the associations that they have, I would hope that I can make something happen. But as it is, I’m still not getting anywhere near the amount of sex I need, let alone the kinds of sex.

But, as the title of this post references… maybe this time, I’ll be lucky.

Really wish it would happen soon.

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